We’ve been together almost 2 years now. We met in the fall of 2008, almost 5 years ago. Since my freshman year of high school, I’ve had feelings for this boy. And as time went on, those feelings grew stronger and deeper. I went from I like you to I really like you to I hope you like me to I love you to I really love you to I’m in love with you and now I’m in love with you and I’m not going anywhere so you’re stuck with me. Of any guy I’ve talked to or been with, you are by far the best. I trust you and you’re the only person that’s been able to have and keep my trust. I started off being scared of you because from the start I knew you were different. I talked about things I never talked about with anyone else. You made me smile like I hadn’t smiled before. You made me laugh, and still continue to do so to this day. I’ve gone from being scared, nervous and hiding from you to wanting to hurry to the day we move in together because I know I’ll get to be with you everyday for the rest of my life. I feel comfortable with you. You make me feel safe. You make me cry. You piss me off. You make me wonder and worry. You sometimes still make me nervous. I still feel like the luckiest girl because of what you did that night on July 22, 2011. You asked me to be your girl, although not long before you said you didn’t like labels. I don’t know what changed your mind that day but whatever it is I’m glad it did. My love and trust grew with time as you continued to make me happy. I loved and trusted you so much I wanted to prove to you how much you meant to me. I gave you my all. My heart. My love. My body and soul. It was the biggest decision I had to make and I promise I don’t regret it at all. You saved me. After an entire school year of having a “secret” relationship, you still stuck around and saved me. You were the first person I told about what was happening at home. I was afraid you’d freak out and leave but you stayed and I felt closer to you. I then knew what we had/have is real and I didn’t want to lose it. For once in my life I had something and someone that meant a lot to me and I was gonna fight to keep it. Nothing was gonna tear me apart from you, so I followed you to school and for once we didn’t have to hide our love from anyone. You gave me strength. I didn’t care what people thought about me or you or us. I loved you and you loved me and that’s all that mattered. I want you to know I still feel this way. I’m madly in love with you. You mean the world to me. I would go to the moon and back for you. I’d go to the end of the world with you. I’d jump in front of a bullet for you. I appreciate you. I appreciate what we have. Yes you hurt me at times but I do love you. No matter what. This is the one and only place I feel I can come to where I can express my feelings. I told you that. Tumblr is like my diary, I come to it when I need to get things out. And I told you everything I write here is in the heat of the moment. Its just so I don’t keep things bottled up inside me. You’re making me feel like I can’t express my feelings or emotions. Fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you fuck you
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